Jean and I married in our front room with a small handful of witnesses on this day in 2001. I'm always at a loss for words when I try to describe how much she has meant, and means, to me - I don't have the vocabulary to do it justice.
We've been through a lot of stuff in the intervening years - it's been a struggle to keep afloat, at times - but I have never wavered in my love for her and in the certainty of her love for me.
I can't imagine what my life would be like without her love and support - she's seen me through all my myriad accidents, incidents and illnesses of recent years and she is inspiring me through this current chapter. I've put her through a lot of heartache and pain, but she's never wavered and has always been there with exactly what I have needed.
I'm planning to be around for at least another 15, which hopefully will be less stressful and with more time to just enjoy being together.
The last few days, as predicted, have been hard physically - the drugs I'm taking are dealing with the side-effects of the chemo, but they are making me really tired and listless. Also, as predicted, I'm feeling like I'm not achieving anything now that the daily radio-therapy appointments are no more. The plan is for me to get my strength up for the operation in February, but that's so amorphous! I need something concrete to focus on.
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